Thursday 8 March 2012

"Keep Your Coins I Want Change"

A beggar's sign that read, "Keep your coins I want change."

Never got to see this myself yet how provocative is such not to mention quite a profound statement. It sort of inspires me to raise my fist  in Lady Liberty fashion (the woman in French revolution pictures,on the Viva La Vida Coldplay cover art and if you still not sure think Statue of Liberty.) Ima tone down a bit though coz i don't wanna turn this into a YOUTH RISE UP and CREATE CHANGE read or even worse turn this into one of those things that make you feel guilty of the blessings you have in life. I'm writing this coz growing up it seems I've developed a passion or softly put a care for wanting to help alleviate social issues such as poverty,child abuse....(continues rambling like the inner social worker I am becoming) Now i  understand in the society that we are in such is difficult not just coz of the systems and bureaucracy established but very predominate is the individualistic culture rising and i could go forever about that maybe i will leave it for another post. To just summarise if the problem aint happening to you then it's not your responsibility to fix it. I stumble upon so many people who can not sympathise for the poor at all and some of their reasons are quite valid on the other hand its starting this cycle where it only creates more problems than solutions.

I'm a known classic to try talk about too many  subjects at once so lemme zone in. Back to the title, "keep you coins, i want change" Ima try to this Westville Girls' word for word analysis starting with "coins" well obviously these are usually those silver round things that can buy you a chappie with yet for the purposes of this post i take it as a representation of well duh something small but not just that something that's inadequate but we take coz we not given another option. In the case of beggers like honestly really can we say those coins we give them are enough for living?? Shout out to those who bother to give though than offer the cold shoulder. Also in terms of the word "coins"we could link it to a materialistic idea which would hence imply superficiality. The world has lost all our Karl Marxs (blame sociology for the previous and next analogy) our Webers. People who think beyond the material but still manage to acknowledge its there. I swear the world has become too comfortable with accepting less than it should,we are not surprised by tragedy anymore!! Is it ignorance I think not what i think the main reason responsible for this is we believe there is nothing we can do about it there is no change we can bring about. And truly even i am hit by this sober attitude when I ponder on the hunger in Somalia. . .sigh. . . how can I a 19 year old little as I am help that.

The positive or power of the title comes in the word "CHANGE"(clears throat to break into Barak Obama voice) YES WE CAN!!! haha ok ok i wont go all political on you but most certainly as demonstrated by Obama's placement into presidency there is a strong yearning for change. Now what kind of change am I proposing? Well lets start with a change of heart. To be radical and uncomfortable with tragedy the way we supposed to be. To be touched by statements such as "Keep Your Coins I Want Change" because seriously the world will not change if we keep accepting the inadequate "coins" its as futile as  the beggar accepting R5 upon the streets. Maybe if we change our hearts we will be inspired to change more.


Wednesday 1 February 2012

just putting myself out there to emphasis my existence

It's been too long since i wrote. I could blame it on the lack of wi-fi that took place in my house for the last two weeks but also quite honestly I have found myself so uninspired and unmotivated. It's that sad case of just existing. Since I've started with the truthfulness might as well continue and say it's this feeling of just existing that in a minute way led me to starting this blog. In these times we searching for clarification of self,some sort of proof that we really are alive. Unfortunately cyber space has offered us such as space to become something/someone. Don't get me wrong cyber space is an awesome place to chill and damned be the day it ever gets banned. Simple things like the amount of followers you have on twitter,the amount of likes you get on a facebook status (OK can't think of more examples those are my main social networking sites) these things are sadly being used as yardsticks to measure our worth. I'm starting to feel like I'm getting this condescending tone so let me make this more personal. Yesterday i had 66 followers on my twitter some  two bimbos decided i was interesting enough to read what i gotta say. At the end of the day i was back to just 64 followers.Now i defiantly do not describe myself as someone who looks to others for self validation which is why I don't mind having a two digit number for my followers. Not the type to go attract attention to get mere strangers to like me yet the minus two on my followers list got to me. Firstly lets all admit it's freaking irritating to have indecisive people in your mists,if you gonna follow me. follow me! (got the sudden urge to say b!itch). I found myself thinking what did i do wrong?  Were my tweets not inspiring enough? What were they expecting of me in the beginning that i didn't met in the end? Luckily I am mature enough to get over it hmmmm wait but  here i am writing about it. Let me rephrase and say luckily i am mature enough to admit when something i know is small and stupid still kind makes me cringe. The whole point i believe blogs,facebook and twitter exist is so that you can be heard regardless if you speaking crap or you princess sensibility. Freedom of expression is obviously something both me and the Carte Blanche show stand for. People like to feel like there is someone out there who cares what you think,i like to feel there is someone out there who is going to read this and agree with me. "No man is an island"


                                            NO MAN IS AN ISLAND
Fact of the matter is we human and we need someone to listen sometimes. It's like Bosman and Lena although her being in that troubled relationship broke her down being around him made her know she really is alive. (if you were never a drama student i assume you a little lost with that example) Now I'm not endorsing for people to put their self worth in others coz duh its gonna kill you tryna please everyone. I propose a balance whereby you critically analyse what you gonna take in to build yourself up. What are you gonna base your existence on so that there is a purpose to your living. I think i have covered too much for any of it to make true sense but you know what at the end of the day this is me and I'm just putting my thoughts,wishes,dreams and myself out there the trick is to not take it personally when you suddenly realise not everybody likes you. On that note i have a request pertaining to this freedom of speech. Yes you have the right to be heard just please make sure whatever it is you saying is worth listening to. So many people on my TL/facebook screaming and very few times i stop to listen. Yes now i am being condescending just can we be able to differentiate  whats fun,witty and actually interesting from whats just plain stupid ie Nonhle Thema tweets. Also in this society we in now can we also remember that speech as powerful as it is is just speech it becomes more potent with some action. The quote that comes to mind is "No one cares what you have to say until they know you care"

 NO ONE CARES WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY UNTIL THEY KNOW YOU CARE

Now I'm pretty sure I've covered too much just ranting and raving my honest and what i would like to call deep thoughts. Permission for one last quote which is kinda Eina for those who have built themselves and the basis on who there are on the net. Actually i will further admit it was a little eina to me too.

You're not deep,you're not intellectual,you're not an artist,you're not a critic,you're not a poet.You just have Internet access.





Wednesday 18 January 2012

Why i hate religion but love Jesus.

Won't comment much just felt the need to share this after it had been shared at church. Really touched me and think it's really profound and enlightening.



Saturday 31 December 2011

path to 2012

Ok so nothing epic with friends as i would have liked or even romance behind the night with a midnight kiss yet i must say sharing the New Years Eve with family is turning out to be enjoyable :) i won't spoil you with details or some inspirational message for the new year (that will come later maybe hehe). Here is just some pics of my day soo far. . .



a lot more than it looks like I'm stuffed

eating my salad whilst watching NBA Basketball

posing with some cold beers hehe, alcohol does'nt usually make it into our house belongs to the visitors.

15yr old brother posing drunk

Coke (need i say more?)





Friday 30 December 2011

Vogue Tribute To Black Beauties











blackness!!





Will not dare get too dug into detail or debate on this topic firstly coz its been done to death,secondly don't think i could adequately cover it all as there is not firm stand point on it and thirdly but mainly it's late and my brain starts shutting down at 22.00hrs. The topic is BLACKNESS or being black. This question of are black women trying to be white or is it just the modern age we live in. A sure point of discussion that comes with this line of questioning is weaves,oh yes i said it.Are black girls trying to be white when they stitch those on or just following in the footsteps of history's iconic glamorous black women who also dabbled in the hair trend. Lord knows that aint Beyonce's hair!!Personally i do think it outrageous for one to say you wanna be white all on account of the fact that i gotta a weave on. Never have i woken up and declared, "Today i wanna be white"and despite the term given to me of "coconut" will say i am very proud of being black,being an African. Another question comes up of what is being back? Is it just a matter of the colour of your skin,a biological thing or is it more culture, gotta act and be a certain way? I would really love to know who invented the yardstick to measure how black a person is or how beautiful one is. Like i said this topic has BEEN discussed for ages and will continue to be. Ima just say that identity is very hard to construct sometimes we don't know it's building. Its hard enough to wake up in the morning and just be you never mind having to fit it in with all the gender stereotypes or racial stereotypes. Somewhere Somehow it all does come to a balance i believe and cliche as it sounds you gotta just be secure in who you are. I could have derailed alot haha from the beginning of what we were talking about but quite sure there is a chain of thought under it all. I just wanna end with a quote i heard today in the mist of discussion about racial beauty,style and eurocentric values the world now has in terms of well everything. "Beauty is not in a vacuum there is always a context to it. The look you going for has been shaped."

"BEAUTY IS NOT IN A VACUUM THERE IS ALWAYS A CONTEXT TO IT.THE LOOK YOU GOING FOR HAS BEEN SHAPED."

I did say i wont be able to answer all the questions in fact I'm still tryna figure myself out.Yet it is something deep to ponder upon.

that vs that